Author's Note

For me, there is no better way of self expression other than putting everything in writing... simplest thoughts about anything under the sun, keeping a journal about big and not so big events in my life, or just a mere expression of my emotions - sad, happy, desperate, depressed, hopeful, in love, heart broken or just when simply moving on.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

He's no longer baby Ben...

The first time I laid my eyes on Ben he was a only a few hours old, around 9+ pounds, his cheeks was so red, wrapped in a blanket & a dextrose in his left or right arm - can't remember. The new born screening results showed that he was low in glucose so he needs to stay in the hospital for a few more days. I wonder, how could this "big" baby who cries the loudest in the nursery be low in glucose?... hahaha

They (with her sister Ann Gabrielle) left the Philippines when he was turning 5 and her sister was almost 4 years old. They were so excited and almost forget about me as soon as they step inside the airport. It shows that he was really anticipating his reunion with Mom and Dad. I could still clearly recall the sweet grin in his face and his hands waving goodbye - "bye Tita Donskie" was all he said. Tita on the other hand was crying, we (my brother and sister in law) were all so quiet inside the car as we head home.

I just had a long conversation with Ben via YM! quite out of the ordinary actually! Normally, they would run around the house as we watched them through the webcam. Shouting a few I love yous and I miss yous every now and then but still keeping their routine of play - running, climbing and jumping here and there or just quietly eating their in-between meals.

But now, he conversed by dabbling his little hands into the keyboard answering each and every question I throw at him.When asked to tell me more about himself, he said "Is this a quiz?" and I answered, "no!". "Then what?" was his quick response. Hahaha (may pinagmanahan!)

His interests are reading facts about dinosaurs and trying on his science experiments with her mom and little sister. He even shared a few experiments with me and asked me to get a pen and paper and write down the steps. Tita naman willingly followed his instructions.

I realized that he may have grown tall, or talks with his Bristish accent- tomato as in "to-ma-to", today as in "to-day", and expressions such as "I'm perfectly fine" or "i'm good", but he's still the sweetest and most sensitive little boy I've know. I love him and misses him so much.. :)

(He promised he'll share with me more experiments next time and it's a deal according to him.. looking forward to our next "date".)

Published on Facebook, Friday, December 31, 2010

Dear Friday...

This started when I posted a status on my FB account, asking desperately for Friday to come in quick and to tag Saturday and Sunday along. The follow up posts from FB friends was hilarious, then I received this note from a friend.

Dear Friday,

I slept on the couch yesterday afternoon in pleasure of the anticipation of your return. It was a bit cold so i made my backwards jacket as my blanket. I think i slept between the re-run of the late show and a cooking demo in the lifestyle network.

I ordered a cold beer for you from the bar last night but you never came so i just drank it. The night was boring. I prepared some clever conversations and since you're not there, i just replayed it in my mind.

Today, i feel a bit tired and my breath somehow still stinks of the beer from last night. I'll wear the same pants and socks as yesterday all for the love of you and the game. Well I guess, it's close enough for some jazz and good enough for rock and roll.

It was only Thursday after all. You didn't miss anything. I only missed you.

Now I'm just glad you're here.

Love,

xxx



And my reply to his email was...


dear mr. xxx,

hi!

too bad that thursday failed to keep you entertained,
but then i'm sure her presence reminded you of my return.
i'm glad to know you misses me
but i'll be here just for one day.
so have the beer ready and our music too,
be it jazz or rock and roll, I wouldn't mind at all.
re-runs, late shows, or cooking demo
i would be happy and content watching it with you.

see you soon.

love,

friday
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